Tonight

*ORIGINALLY POSTED ON AUGUST 9TH*

I watched Little Women for the first time today, and I don't really know why I had never watched it before. I think I had the impression if was a bunch of women wearing bonnets and frolicking about the countryside of the the wild west.

But I was quite wrong actually.

It was a really enjoyable movie that had the kind of subtle humor that I've always "lol'd" at and of course it was a love story. And quite honestly I'm a sucker for love stories. I just enjoy watching people falling in love and living happily ever after...

But I wouldn't say I necissarily enjoy reading love stories as much. Because then it sometimes becomes really excessive and if it's not written well makes me want to blow my brains off.

I think it's because I want love so much though. And the reason I want love so much probably has to do with the fact that I've read so many love stories...but never the less!

I want love just like every other human being on the planet.

And I know that I'll find it one day, and that when I do...well, I don't really know...I have no idea what the man God's picked out for is going to look like...I have no idea what his personality is like, I have no idea if i've already met him, I have no idea if it's going to be one of those 'love at first sight' deals (though I don't really think that happens) I have no idea if it's going to be a cliched perfect romance, and I don't even know if i'm going to be having a husband with children and grandchildren.

I could die tomorrow and never know the kind of love that a man can give a women or the kind of love a mother can give it's child.

I want to know that love...I really do. But if it's not what God has in store for me then okay by me. Maybe I won't die tomorrow or something, I just may never fall in love and get married.

It's rather sad actually...my want for a human and physical love. God's love for me should be enough, but it isn't. Technically it is. There is no love greater than his and I really don't need anything more than that. But I want something more...

The selfish imperfect human being inside me wants something more.