Sometimes you have to turn down the noise

And turn up the quiet.

Today while I was working I served this elderly-ish woman. She may have been in her early sixties late fifties. And for some reason...when I looked at her I thought "I really hope she is married." so I checked both hands (I have problems with differentiating between left and right. hush.) and come to find out, she wasn't. or at least, there was no ring. And I just became sad for her...not because I feel like you need to be married to have a fulfilled life...but because she seemed so lonely and just...morose inside and I wanted to talk to her and be friendly and what such but I was afraid...

I don't know why I was afraid, or really even of what...at the time I was thinking "social norms social norms social norms" (I mean, really, a 17 year old chickfila employee randomly sits down with an elderly customer. They'd prolly think i'm trying to weasel my way into a trust fund or something.) so it didn't come accross as fear at the time, but I spose that is what it was.

But anywho.

This one lady (for the life of me I can't even recall her name...) got me thinking about everyother individual in the world. And progressively I just became more depressed an depressed because there will always always always be people like her...or if not like her (I don't actually know if this lady was sad and lonely, this is all just an assumption I'm making for myself)then in a bad place in their lives. And all of these desolate souls (I know that sounds corny, but it's not to far from the truth!) will not have anybody to comfort them...maybe someone will notice but brush it off like I did this evening.

And that makes me sad...to know that there are all of these struggling people in the world...I dunno. I guess I just wish I could fix everybody...I know that's not in my power, but someday I hope that I can be a tool in that way...

I also wish I could get my butt in line.

sigh.

So many problems in the world...and there is only one solution!

But I'll make it...I hope. =)