Everybody here is trying on new faces

*ORIGINALLY POSTED AUGUST 10TH 2010*

And with a shining new beginning we cordially invite you to the dressing room.



Today I went to Pitts Pond!! I haven't been there since I was about 7 or 8 or something, and I enjoyed it thirty times more than I did last time. (prolly cuz I could actually do all of the things I couldn't before.)


But on the way there I road with Cheyanne and Betheny. (Josh was there but he doesn't really count. ^^)


But I had heard that she was planning another trip to Iquitos in December. And I was just blown away that she was following through with her claims.


When we were actually in Peru she really just got under my skin. I think because of the whole Becca thing and just her constant and incssent flirtations with Josue and her need to be the center of attention. And when she went on about her plans I was really doubtful and just generally pissed off that she was so adament on it.


It wasn't really that I didn't think she would do it, I knew that she was and I think that is what got under my skin; is that she knew what she wanted. She really didn't know how to go about it, but she knew that she was going to do it. She had a calling from God she listened and so far she's kicked face following it.


I just want that really badly...to have that drive and absolute knowledge of what needs to be done. And to just know that it's what i'm meant to be doing. What I was literally made to be doing.


But I really don't know what that could be...I mean...is my calling literally to be a social worker? It sounds so lame...I mean...yeah, I want to be a social worker...but I dunno if thats what God's got in store for me. Maybe I'll just end up a house wife helping out in the church community.


I'm not sure. I just want to do his will.