Go easy on me

*ORIGINALLY POSTED AUGUST 15TH 2010*

I can't help what I'm doing.

I've wrestled with what i've wanted this blog post to be about today. There are so many topics that I could hit, some more interesting than others, that I honestly don't know which to go to.

so, maybe i'll just list them off and elaborate when I feel like it.

A.)I'm kind of...put out that a certain someone brought another certain ex-gf to 180 tonight. Okay, so the certain someone didn't bring her, but she was there, and looking raher...clingy...

But it's whatever.

I have a crush on him, but it's not serious. Puppy love is what you would call it I suppose. I'm not saying it doesn't suck to see him with his ex, which in reality may mean absolutly nothing at all, but it is what it is.

B.) I'm really pissed off about this whole mosque in ground zero deal. I wrote a lot today about it for this post but i've decided to forgo my insane rant for some other time.

Maybe once band camp has started and i'm feeling lazy i'll post it.

C.) My siblings are weighing more on my mind. Meaning i'm beginning to wish more often that my sister and I had a better relationship (it's really all my fault). I'm wishing that Jonathon had been a good older brother to me. I'm also wishing that he would just go away. And i'm also hoping that Josh see's me as a good older sister. One that he can come to and talk to about the important things in life as well as the not so important things in life.

D.) I'm trying to focus a lot more on my relationships with people. I'm trying to be more open and willing with my life and I want people to feel like they won't be judged in my presence. I'm not perfect and I'm not Jesus where i'm completly accepting and all that jazz, but when I meet people I try to keep an open mind and look past quirks and flaws and what not. I just want people to know that they can depend upon me. If i'm going to be a social worker than peeps will have to do that anyhow, and I want them to do it willingly

But back to the original point.

I'm trying hard to be a good friend and to really start to care not only about my friends and family but be open and loving to the people that I don't really know.

So yeah...My brain is pretty fried from thtis weekend so I'm going to hit the hay. =)